Fatness To Fitness

I was a relatively famous rapper in my home country for a long time. Success was on/off as in music you're just as hot as your latest project. I was in a pretty rare (small) niche at the time , Finnish gangsta rap.It Was fun until it wasn't. With fame comes negative things also.At the peak of my career, I was living in a Shit box and "friends" couches.  I have a diagnosis of a severe panic disorder with dissociation, which then led to heavy drinking and then came drugs. I wouldn't call myself an alcoholic,I got Lucky that way but I was drinking myself into an early grave. Drug addict sure.All my friends are dead,I feel horrible on every level everyday so give me anything, I'll mainline that shit n try to forget I exist. At the same time I was doing shows n recording but wasn't happy.I was sure I had this conviction from higher up,I have to live like this n that's it.Then I found out that exercising makes the anxiety a little easier to deal with. After a while, everything changed.♥️