Fruit5al4d

Sorry yall, I have been thinking, achieved a lot of personal goals, and is satisfied of what I can accomplish with god, I know religion Is something hard to accept so I’ll tell you this.
Id honestly can’t live myself anymore, so I decided to let the version you know as “Fruit5al4d” fade. Than I  allowed of what “good” remains and move forward, I have said things and questioned myself many times. 
Many versions of myself have faded, many times I have humbled myself, Even today.
I would call people “abominable”
“Wasn’t I who lied and quick to do evil? who am I to judge!”
I wouldn’t “trust” that homeless person with a penny
“Didn’t my mother give me money when I asked? to just buy flower behind her back? Oh how I’ve broken her trust so many times.”
So I give, and see, and listen and understand… “at least that’s what I tell myself”.
A “hypocrite” is who I am. I won’t come back until this fades as well. I’m sorry but I really want to be a good person, so l give my life to Christ. I Lov u al